I'm afraid of waking up in the middle of the night in a dark room.

It's not so much the dark I'm afraid of, it's the eeriness. The mystery.

It's like I'm afraid of what I might find if I turn on the lights.

This was my 5th tour and first time seeing Beyoncé live in person, by far the best. I'm positive there's no better experience than being in the VIP pit by the stage because you can touch her. Being able to see her face that close is so amazing, her facial expressions were the highlight of the show for me. It was even better because the crowd was so hype, she was clearly surprised and kept saying how much she loved our energy and fed off of it.

I was really blown away by her dancing, obviously I've always known she's an exceptional dancer but this is the most (and best) choreography I've seen her do on a tour (via DVDs). Her voice was on point, as always, and again the energy was off the charts throughout the whole show. Why Don't You Love Me was definitely my favorite performance of the night, and I always say this but I love how she keeps her hit songs from 10 years ago in her shows but gives them new life with fresh routines (proving how timeless they are.) She's starting to do the same with Single Ladies and I can tell that performance is going to get even better over the years as well. Seeing her perform Schoolin' Life live was very surreal because EVERYONE around me knew the words. It's so bizarre because the song hasn't officially been released, no one has a clue what's going on with it, but we all went nuts over the performance haha.

The VIP experience was definitely worth it, being so close was a dream. I thought I would get tired from standing so long but I guess my adrenaline and excitement kept me from feeling it. My legs and back hurt that night when I went to bed but by the next morning I didn't feel a thing lol. I've worked my way up to better seats each time I've seen Bey and next time I will definitely be getting the pit again.

A few highlights (I didn't record these videos)

Excited...

Do you judge children by their names?

This is by far the most ridiculous thing I've ever heard.

Random Thoughts

• I know that you are suppose to respect your elders, but what about the elders who are down right disrespectful to you for no reason? I am one of those people who always try to show the utmost respect to older people. I always try to say yes/no Sir and yes/no Ma'am or put Mr,Ms, or Mrs in front of their name, but I've also had my share of older people disrepsecting me out of nowhere and it's usually the ones that don't know me at all.

• Paula Deen is trash. Her operation as an innocent is over. And damn if I didn't like her so much prior to the incident.

• Earl Grey Tea is delicious.

• Using the phone is my least favorite form of communication, I don't know why but I hate making phone calls. I'd rather communicate through carrier pigeon or something.

• I feel so bad for laughing at this gif.

• I actually enjoyed watching this. It's sad people still believe we're in victorian era.

• The amount of money I spend on food is ridiculous. 

“Do you think it was fair, what they got? They did something stupid, but I don’t know. I’m not blaming the girl, but if you’re a 16-year-old and you’re drunk like that, your parents should teach you—don’t take drinks from other people. She’s 16, why was she that drunk where she doesn’t remember? It could have been much worse. She’s lucky. Obviously I don’t know, maybe she wasn’t a virgin, but she shouldn’t have put herself in that position, unless they slipped her something, then that’s different.” -Serena Williams on Steubenville Rape Case

Victim blaming? Oh

While I understand where she was going with it, the statement came across as ignorant, uninformed, and just plain dumb. She's lucky? lucky that she got raped or lucky that she didn't die? What does her being a virgin or not have to do with anything? 

I can't at "your parents should teach you don't take drinks from other people". Your parents should teach you not to rape people, that's the problem.

This is why so many victims are afraid to come forward. Because people find a way to place the blame on them. Who wants to be told they asked for such a violent attack? That they deserved it?

Ricahrd Ramirez dead

Richard Ramirez -- aka The Night Stalker -- who went on a rape-murder spree in Los Angeles in the mid-80s and terrorized the entire city -- is dead at 53 ... but we're getting conflicting info on the cause.

Ramirez killed at least 13 people and attempted 5 more ... by climbing in the windows of homes. He also committed 11 sexual assaults, and probably more.

Ramirez was convicted and sentenced to death in 1989, and sat on San Quentin's death row ever since. The death sentence was not carried out because of endless appeals.

A San Quentin spokesperson reportedly says Ramirez died of natural causes ... HOWEVER ... a prison official told TMZ ... the murderer died from Hepatitis C, which some doctors say can be transmitted through sexual contact. Hep C is verifiably contracted through IV drug use and blood transfusions.

The Night Stalker's crimes were particularly heinous ... he killed people as young as 9 and as old as 83. 

On June 2, 1985, he murdered a 29-year-old man ... and then raped the victim's girlfriend, who survived the attack. 

On July 20, 1985 ... he murdered another man -- and forced the victim's wife to perform oral sex on him. The wife survived the attack. 

Just 3 weeks after that ... Ramirez committed an almost identical crime -- killing husband, raping wife. 

On August 25, 1985, he committed yet another crime -- shooting a man in the head and raping the victim's fiancee ... only this time, he made her swear her love for Satan during the attack. The man, Bill Carns,miraculously survived the attack. 

Eventually, cops were able to obtain a fingerprint -- and released a mug shot of Ramirez to the public. He was captured days later, when an angry mob in East L.A. found him trying to steal a car ... and beat him within an inch of his life. 

When Ramirez appeared in court, he famously flashed an image of a pentagram that was tattooed on his palm. 

In short -- he was one of the absolute worst people to ever walk the Earth.

Read more: http://www.tmz.com#ixzz2VZj7Qx7r

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Ramirez was a monster. If there's a hell, he's definitely there. And I'm sure he's happy.

But, I find it quite odd that he has so many young female admirers. A lot of them were having meltdowns on social networking site Tumblr when the news broke.

These girls have apparently been writing him letters back and forth.

This is funny and sad at the same time.

He's like a misunderstood poet to them. It's the reason why girls love Edward Cullen and bad boys but to a much more extreme extent. These girls fantasize about falling in love with a dangerous man and think that their love will cure them. And it's also a big sign of attention seeking and wanting to root and defend the underdog/loser for the sake of it. Or they find disturbed anger attractive.

I have a fascination with serial killers. Some of them are fascinating people. Intelligent, to some degree. But psychopaths are interesting people and they've inspired so much so I don't find it unusual to be interested in them. But to think of them in a romantic way is really creepy, at least to me.